S397. I was allowed to be who I was


We started talking over the internet. Never expected in advance what impact it would have. Found each other by coincidence because if I had followed my list then you would not be among them. Wow .. How we were growing from something innocent to something intense and beautiful. During our hour-long chat sessions, we came closer together. So many common ground. me together with M. and you with A. You made sure you saw me, I could be who I was. Such a connection with you. Almost unreal. You gave me so much more than you will ever know. The recognition in stories. So close but also so far away. 

Shared a few months sweet and live. You had such a wonderful voice. Tea together, our beautiful conversations. On a sexual level it was completely right. Our story, our moments would come. My relationship made it complicated and I let it happen. I am so sorry. I hoped so hard that it could be different. 

When I think of our time together, I get a smile on my face. I feel a warmth inside but also an empty place. I would like to thank you so much for the wonderful time. You didn’t just come on my path. 

I am so sorry how I broke the contact. That does not deserve a beauty prize. You deserved more. I let you go in a panic, I shut myself off from everything. I didn’t know what to do anymore. I wanted my family and you but that was no longer possible.  

A lot to do in the coming period, especially for myself, a coach who will help me. 

I hope that someday you can let go of the anger and look at the beautiful things. I miss you so much but I had to let you go sweetheart. My eyes are full of tears, I sincerely hope you are well.