Shayotan

As long as I can remember I have always had the feeling that as a child I was connected to a girl who was younger than me. A strong feeling that I was never alone, a feeling that you have a line with the other. You feel it in your heart, you feel it in your soul and it is an inner knowing that you just know for sure.
A place in your heart that you keep and is only intended for her whom you dearly love and have not yet encountered in this life.
As a child I regularly dreamed that she would come to visit me in a different dimension. The image that has always remained with me, dark brown almond-shaped eyes of Chinese descent and as a child she grew with me.

From the age of 9 my life was turned upside down. Parents divorced and more misery came my way. Because of all the problems I had forgotten her but when I was 14 the feeling came back and I realized that at night in my dreams a Chinese girl always came to visit me.

At the age of 23 I was zapping in front of the TV and I heard a familiar voice, and there she was …
A strong feeling, I know you, you are the girl who visited me in my dreams, my soulmate. I felt a warm energy of love flowing in my heart. I did not know what happened to me and pushed it away, the feeling came so close that I did not know what to do with this feeling.
It felt like merging together, being together 1 and I didn’t want to know so much about spirituality at that time, so I suppressed that too.
Years passed and occasionally she came up to me, but I pushed these feelings far into the background. I could not do anything with it, contacting was not possible at all, so the choice was quickly made.

Immediately after my divorce I ended up in a transformation and there the pieces fell into place. Flashbacks from a past life brought the finishing touches.
On a spiritual level, I had a strong feeling that I was being sent in a certain direction. I had to go this way, then the answers would come naturally, only I did not know my god what questions I had. I followed my feelings and got flashbacks about a life with my soulmate. I will save details but it still feels to me that we have a chance to finish something, provided that you want to take that opportunity together of course because everything remains a choice.

In that past life I died when I was 23 and she was 19 when I left her with a lot of sorrow. I have been wandering between the light and the earthly because we could not let go of each other. Eventually I had to make the choice to go to the light because she just cried and stopped talking in her environment. The pain became unbearable to see her like that, hence my choice that I had to make.
I still feel the old heart every day and I have a strong feeling that she still feels that pain. It is not closed properly and you carry it in your soul, at least that’s how I experience it.
Many coincidences fell into place in this life, among which it cannot be a coincidence that I first saw her again when I was 23 and she was 19.
We care again for 4 years in this life and it feels like a continuation …
The question is only when and will she still know that she contacted me as a child.