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I came in contact with J. through my then girlfriend B. (B. was more fun, I thought it was best from a long-term relationship)
I would go to a party in Utrecht with reluctance. , two girlfriends – both unknown to me, B. could take one, the other came from Brabant, came to pick us up at my house …
When she came in I knew, and also said (she said afterwards)
My God, April 4 – 2010, it was a year ago and I feel it again brrrrr
It was terrible, and so beautiful, J. broke up after two weeks … On a Sunday afternoon … Sunday evening she was back again … It was too confusing .. especially for her … I once counted that J. in 7 months 4 had once decided… Terrible, three times she came to tell it personally, to wake up in the morning – after a wonderful night – together
Well, the relationship was tightening and shedding, it really came from her side, she is 8 years older than I am (33 41) but that doesn’t interest me … Everything was “awkward”, she lived 80km away from me, had a son (could I agree) absolutely different kind of work … Well and ???? The funny thing was, the second sentence I said to J. was; I know you from somewhere, she said the same. Her son said it as the first sentence …
That relationship did not represent much, was 2 months old but did not last long ..
An obstacle was her fear of attachment and trust because I looked like her first boyfriend (in terms of doing things) that was 18 years ago … Then she never loved, afraid of the pain … Until we …
We could not do with each other and not without each other … enough seems to me
I sent another card with a letter for her birthday … to ask to bury the hatchet … (both don’t even know why J. is particularly angry ..) no answer .. not even emails … That is very frustrating for me. But I know she still loves me so much, and I naturally love her …
The most special thing is the absolute unparalleled love that we were proficient … hands entwined, looking at each other … She was so nice and fragile …
Normally she was tough, I knew better …
DELICIOUS … DELICIOUS …
The erotic can never be matched again …
Soul love for me feels like an emotion-roller coaster x 10, terribly special-awful …
It was a sweethearted hell … J. could not stand that someone really came close ..
I want to say that I still love d, r, and the pain is sweet because I know it is mutual .. although I haven’t seen her for 3 months now …
Last time on a birthday, where I arrived late … and on the sidewalk, in front of the house where I had to be, I arrived we at the same time … Incredibly, I had to drive 40km, they did not speak to each other for 124km .. right at the door …
My tip: Stay cool, if that succeeds, it is not a Soul Love ..
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Dear writer of this sweet letter, I feel addressed, although I don’t know why, it is like making someone happy with a dead sparrow, you will probably understand that. I understand that you cannot post the letter, I did not dare at the time but I have found another (really personal) way, shouldn’t it be that difficult if you love someone so much, right? Unless you’re scared, but who? For yourself or for your reflection? Of course you can say, you do not need earthly confirmation because all the answers are within you. And that is absolutely true, and I have already succeeded for 3 years and I will succeed on my further path. Love IS, without conditions, expectations or manipulation, without fear … … and my unrestrained and unconditional love has brought me to where I am now. Somewhere on this site there is a poem with my name, and it says “you are afraid of your feelings”, that cannot be about me, if someone is not afraid of his feelings then! is that me! and twin know that! I can live without expectations, conditions, prejudices and manipulate my life and have felt healed since last summer, thank you, and I did it ONLY. But I am also a human being and I am supposed to function as a human being in this society with everything I “know”, would it be nice if my twin could handle it a little more humanly at some point, it would be so much make it easier for both of us. Because, you know, I’d rather not walk winding paths with two-person pitfalls, then I’d rather walk a very narrow but flawless path on my own, that’s how I am and how I want to be and stay, and then I will wait for my twin at the finish line, whenever that may be, with all the love I have in me. I love you!
(Forever)
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Dear Forever, I am glad you responded. It feels good to share these feelings and find recognition. May I know where that poem (that maybe about you) is on the site? I don’t know what the situation is with you and your twin. If you’re a bit farther, your twin may be so confused with herself (is it true that you are a man and then she a woman?) That she doesn’t see you well enough. Maybe she suppresses her feelings herself and projects that on you. That can be an agreement with my situation. I think I was the one who didn’t see, because I had too many personal problems and meanwhile had to build up a life of my own, etc. The feelings for my twin were so intense and I couldn’t handle and have it in an adult way she suppressed (that was my survival mechanism). No matter how difficult it was. I also felt that things would not go well between us, because I felt he was ‘further’ and much more balanced. And in that sense I understand! completely what you mean: that you prefer not to walk in winding paths. More questions: why can’t your twin handle it humanely? And what did you do to heal yourself? Anyway, thank you for your support and I wish you and your twin lots of love.
(J.)
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Dear J, Who the man is and who makes the woman I don’t think so much for the soul, twin and I are one-egg as a soul…. And that survival mechanism of the other, you’re absolutely right about that, that’s why I was able to release twin completely since I was healed. Apparently they thought it was necessary to lead me to this site up there. And who is further in his development, yes, who will tell, who is the master and who is the student, who is the therapist and who needs his therapist, I do not know and do not find it important…. we probably need each other. And twin does deal with it humanely, I expressed myself wrongly sorry, what could be more human than feeling pain and fear, I actually meant that I would find it human to just be able to talk about it, but yes that does not really apply to the twinflame story because that goes so far beyond what most people can comprehend … How did I heal myself; I have the light in myself! found out, you are your own god, and there is actually no directions for that, you have to discover it yourself, and when you are ready, you are able to fully surrender to the big picture and you know that everything has a reason and nothing happens for nothing, even if you cannot understand. Then you have no message at all about karma, that’s how it feels for me … Love, for all of you X you have to discover that for yourself, and when you are ready, you are able to fully surrender to the big picture and you know that everything has a reason and nothing happens for nothing, even if you cannot understand it. Then you have no message at all about karma, that’s how it feels for me … Love, for all of you X you have to discover that for yourself, and when you are ready, you are able to fully surrender to the big picture and you know that everything has a reason and nothing happens for nothing, even if you cannot understand it. Then you have no message at all about karma, that’s how it feels for me … Love, for all of you X