S241. I was completely overwhelmed by her

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I met her through my wife. they knew each other from their childhood and after years of no contact, their friendship blossomed again. I got to know her better and because of her unconditionality, her unrestrained openness towards me, she touched me and keeps touching me. She knows, unspoken, so much about me she is under my skin. She feels the same, we are now inseparable in heart and thought ..

We sat at the table with her and her husband, talking about how she felt at the time. She was not doing well and I felt her pain, doubt and needs at that moment. Her gaze there, her sincerity and trust broke open my heart. I was completely overwhelmed by her and the feeling that she let me go. It took me over a year to learn how to deal with it …

Our relationship has always been an overwhelming and unconditional friendship. Also within my marriage she is always present in my head and heart. Still. Always there for each other and 100% sure: I can call her at night … she will be there for me.

In the beginning she could and wanted to understand. she wants that now, but it is becoming increasingly difficult for her. The relationship between my soulmate and me is rock solid and massive. that stings my wife and jealousy becomes an issue.

The suspicion that my soul friend’s feelings are slowly starting to feel more for me than what was, is very difficult for my wife.
This has never affected the relationship with my soul love. It remains unconditional and rock solid.

We once crossed a light line and kissed each other. After a short breath to get things straight, this event also appears to have absolutely no impact on our soul love. Purely based on each other’s respect and unconditional love …

A love relationship between us happens or it doesn’t happen. Of course you have choices, but I don’t make them. I really enjoy every moment with her and keep the door wide open. But if nothing happens I am also completely happy with her as it is now …

Now there is a deep and very satisfying relationship. We have experienced a huge amount together. Laughed a lot and cried a lot, shared many problems and it goes on and on.
Sure I dream of living with her, but I don’t consciously manage it. If it comes then it comes, it doesn’t … well …

My soul love makes me live ……… ..

The best thing that happened is our kiss. Secretly also the most beautiful thing in my entire life. Indescribably beautiful and it sealed our love for each other. It was really the sweetest and softest kiss, but it was the most intense kiss I have ever had and given. For her money too. After that, nothing more happened in that area.

My soul love feeling …
all-embracing, all-determining and it gives the depth in my life that I need so much. it makes me happy and it fills me with certainty and unconditionality.