We met for the first time about 20 years ago. At that time we both did not realize that there was a more than special bond between us. That came years later. Suddenly I discovered that I was very attracted to him. I was young and very in love. That was not mutual. He was even younger than me and had no eye for me that way at the time. Had countless girlfriends as is normal at that age.
These were turbulent times in which a lot happened. I went to study and live in another city, he still lived at home. We kept seeing each other regularly, and what remained was my intense crush. It did not diminish despite the years that passed. Every time I saw him, she flourished again. All the while I also had a relationship in which things went well and then things went less well. But this lasted and later we were even married and there were also children. I also felt genuinely happy with all this. But in addition, there was always that special feeling for what I call my Twin Soul.
He also experienced quite a few in those years and left home. Had countless girlfriends with whom it was never forever. Some stayed longer and others short. There was always an agreement with those girls with me, in appearance, type. Over the years I started to feel more and more what he felt, I became more spiritual and I noticed that there was a kind of bond between us. Telepathic events, dreams, many dreams about us, both independently making the same statements. Name it.
We have never had a physical earthly relationship until now. A friendly relationship in which we feel very familiar with each other. I can be myself with him, he brings out the best in me. He also trusts me a lot and dares to show himself. There is a great attraction between us but we can’t do anything with it. Because I am in a relationship and choose to be faithful to my husband. I do feel that the attraction is mutual.
I never told my partner about it. Not to hurt him and also because I am very sure that he cannot understand. It is something that I have to solve myself, he has no part in it.
Of course some frustration comes out at times when I miss Twin Soul or long for him. Then I become curt, irritable and moody. He thinks this is because of my hormones, but that is only partly true.
We cannot have a relationship in the sense of a true love relationship. That is almost impossible. Furthermore, there are always people around us, so speaking freely together is usually also impossible. Very occasionally there is that chance, and that is great. At those moments I would like to freeze the world apart from us.
I think we would both like a love affair if there weren’t that many obstacles. It would certainly be heavenly and we would reinforce each other very positively. But from a practical point of view there would be a lot of major problems. A lot of people would get hurt. It is not worth it to me and neither to him.
We see each other regularly. That is pleasant but not satisfying. I would like much more, and I mean more contact, deep conversations, philosophizing together, maybe an arm around me, a gesture of friendship. No more. Everything within the limits of what is allowed if you are married.
The soul love has placed me in an accelerated spiritual development. I now experience so much that I couldn’t even imagine before. It has made me happier, freer of thoughts, healer and stronger. But it also let me look deep inside myself. I felt guilty which weighed heavily on my heart. So bad that I no longer dared to look at myself in the mirror. Until one day I could say it was good, I could be who I am with all my feelings, including this one.
I am intensely happy with this to this day.
For the most special is all dreams about him that were so special that they will stay with me forever.
The times we had a strong telepathy. The times we looked into each other’s eyes and saw the desire on both sides. The times he accidentally or deliberately touched me and an electric shiver went through me. The times I received a small gift from him, I cherish them all.
The times I heard his voice on the phone, my heart jumped up and a nice conversation unraveled.
But the best are the things he says that I already knew beforehand. That makes me realize that I really know him from my heart.
We have never had physical contact except for a courtesy kiss and a single touch that was accidental.
But I’m sure it would be fireworks if we kissed together or more.
For me, the feeling of love for the soul is all-embracing, beautiful, difficult and heavy in its time, it shows you every corner of yourself. Even those whose existence you never suspected.
Our relationship will never end, it is forever. I know there is only 1 soul love and he is. Every other man doesn’t like him.
I hope that our contact will one day become more intense, that we become each other’s best friends who dare and may be open and honest with each other. That we will no longer be afraid to embrace each other and to show our affection. That I may lay my head on his shoulder as I often do in my dreams. I hope we keep seeing each other often and that one day he will tell me that he dreams what I dream.
My tips: Do not feel guilty about feelings for a twinflame. They are pure and come from a pure source. It is the intention that can make them impure. If you know for yourself that you are doing well, it is also good. Let him or her go as much as you can, let everyone go their own way. Even if it seems that this path seems to run away from you. Eventually there will come a time when the other will also see and know how it works. Can take a long time, though.
Dear stranger, I read your story and that really struck me. I MUST respond to it. Your story grabbed me because it is also my story. Almost identical! The only difference is that my soulmate W. is my brother-in-law and also the one-man twin brother of my husband E. I met W. and E. almost at the same time. This is now about 19 years ago. Immediately there was an intense bond between us and we could talk about everything. Yet I got a love affair with E. and later married him too. But the bond between W. and me remained. I once thought that I was in a “wrong” relationship and that I had made the “wrong” choice. Now I know that it is not because I love my husband immensely. But after all these years, the bond between W. and me is still there. The special feeling stays and does not go away. Although we have not been in contact for a number of years. Now that contact is happily recovering. I am very happy with this. Especially for my husband it is nice of course and I also gradually get it back in my le! even though it goes very slowly. I just have to be patient, I think, but still I hope that someday (just like back then) he gets closer again. He knows as well as I do that there is more between us than just being brother-in-law and sister-in-law. Only he also runs away from it. Those good conversations had suddenly disappeared and I recently started another conversation that, fortunately, he was not opposed to. So I got a little hope because of that. Now I can only wait. How frustrating that is. I really want to get closer to him. Just that I can occasionally call him … just like that …. I could also write about this for a very long time, but then it will be a very long story. What I wonder now is how YOU deal with it now. At least I myself feel restless and don’t know what to do next. Do I have to talk to him again or not or … well I don’t know. Only know that I feel very lost the moment he goes home after a visit or so…. Hope you want to let us know how you do that. Maybe I can do something with it. I would like to thank you for writing your story on this site. Very recognizable … (at least for me) … Do I have to talk to him again or not or … well I don’t know. Only know that I feel very lost the moment he goes home after a visit or so…. Hope you want to let us know how you do that. Maybe I can do something with it. I would like to thank you for writing your story on this site. Very recognizable … (at least for me) … Do I have to talk to him again or not or … well I don’t know. Only know that I feel very lost the moment he goes home after a visit or so…. Hope you want to let us know how you do that. Maybe I can do something with it. I would like to thank you for writing your story on this site. Very recognizable … (at least for me) …