Micky
I always had the feeling that there was something between a boy and me, I met him when I was almost fifteen, he was 22 in Bali. We had a very familiar feeling together and I have never had anyone I was so upset about than him. At that time I did not know anything about soul love, but I had such a feeling that he was a soulmate. Two years later when I was 17, we got in touch again, he had a girlfriend for this and then we got together for a month. Later it was a fight between me and that ex-girlfriend, constantly it was a rejection and attraction between the two of us. Half a year ago I found out that he is my twinflame, because I started to find out and that is why our relationship is so intense. My ex-boyfriend himself knows that there is something and he told his best friend. When I was 17, he talked about it as if ‘heaven brought us together’, there will certainly be some truth in it. I have never been in love with my twinflame either, he used to be disappointed with that,I always loved him right away. It was not a crush that passed into loving.
I never had a relationship, besides the friend, that I now know is my twinflame, because that is not possible. The barrier is too big, you can’t love anyone as intensely as your twinflame.
A lot happened a half year ago. I had never experienced anything paranormal before. And when I came to this site and read about twinflames. Then I started looking for sites with astrological data, because I wanted to see facts. We always said to each other, you look so much like me and even in my diary I have a poem. I recognize myself in you so. And everything was right and then I started to figure it out astrologically and, scary enough, everything was right. In addition, my birth time is 7.49 and his birth date 20 4 79. And our data added together. gives 21/12/30 or 333, which perhaps refers to 21/12/12, where many things have been written about. So there were so many things by chance. I also bought a statue of twinflames in Africa a year and a half ago, which is roughly in the drawing on this site, while I didn’t know anything about the concept. And under hypnosis I saw things that I could not have known and later saw in books. The Tai chi sign as our bodies. That I saw him for the first time in heaven, which was very surreal. That I saw him in different times, completely chronologically I described these times. So a lot happened. And my feelings became so terribly intense. He is also always with me every second and I feel him occasionally, but he shuts himself off for some reason, which I do not know, although we come back together every year and then we get the most difficult relationship that exists. Literal clashes and especially just thinking about ourselves. The Tai chi sign as our bodies. That I saw him for the first time in heaven, which was very surreal. That I saw him in different times, completely chronologically I described these times. So a lot happened. And my feelings became so terribly intense. He is also always with me every second and I feel him occasionally, but he shuts himself off for some reason, which I do not know, although we come back together every year and then we get the most difficult relationship that exists. Literal clashes and especially just thinking about ourselves. The Tai chi sign as our bodies. That I saw him for the first time in heaven, which was very surreal. That I saw him in different times, completely chronologically I described these times. So a lot happened. And my feelings became so terribly intense. He is also always with me every second and I feel him occasionally, but he shuts himself off for some reason, which I do not know, although we come back together every year and then we get the most difficult relationship that exists. Literal clashes and especially just thinking about ourselves. He is also always with me every second and I feel him occasionally, but he shuts himself off for some reason, which I do not know, although we come back together every year and then we get the most difficult relationship that exists. Literal clashes and especially just thinking about ourselves. He is also always with me every second and I feel him occasionally, but he shuts himself off for some reason, which I do not know, although we come back together every year and then we get the most difficult relationship that exists. Literal clashes and especially just thinking about ourselves.
We had a love affair together. I had 1 month when I was seventeen. Then we met again every year to try it. Which was super intense. We actually always have contact with each other, by telephone, msn, five times a day when we were busy with each other, but we hardly ever met. Because that bond was so intense, we actually always knew each other without having physical contact with each other, and when we saw each other, we had a sexual relationship nine out of ten times.
There were enormous obstacles in our relationship, stubbornness, too much thinking about ourselves instead of the other, age difference too, because he is seven years older than me. And especially his ex-girlfriend he loves, but who hurts him a lot every time. And why he chooses his ex instead of me, that’s something I don’t understand. Even his ex says there’s something between us. I think that his ex also has a lot to do with me and that it is a kind of projection or something, or that he still has to learn things from her, or that I may not have developed enough or a combination of all. But we cannot let go of each other either. When I leave, he doesn’t want that. When it’s over, he says; I’ll talk to you in a few months and it goes on. There is no end to it.
We always had the attraction of a love affair. Both physically and mentally. I looked very much like him, he like me. And it clicked very well, if we were both not stubborn and perhaps immature.
Now we have no relationship, we talk to each other occasionally and I do believe that we will get together again even this year. But sometimes I break it because I can’t stand it if I don’t speak to him and he puts a wall around himself and avoids me, but I can’t quite do that either. So actually that relationship is not satisfactory and people do not believe that it is a twinflame relationship. But I have experienced so many things that I know 1000 percent. But it has to do with the fact that we still have to develop or something I think.
Through this soul love I have developed my personality very much and it has been my drive in one way or another. I did a lot of things in the field of study work for my twinflame. Because I wanted to be the woman who overwhelmed him. And maybe that’s why I sometimes feel that pain, because it drives me to develop. My own thing to do, so I finally did my part of the team that we formed.
Everything was special, just things that you might experience once with an ordinary relationship and so many times with your twinflame. That he calls and you just feel him so intense with every word he speaks. That he touches you and you feel an electric wave through your body. That you recognize yourself in someone like that. That you can love someone so much, so intensely, so unconditionally, that you don’t believe that people know what love is if they don’t experience it.
Eroticism is not really different, although I can hardly compare it, because I have not had really long relationships, because I have been crazy about that boy for so long. But the strange thing was that I felt very little sexually during the act. And funnily enough I was talking to a friend about this, of which I am almost certain that his ex was also his twinflame, he said that it might fit too well, because then there is very little friction and you hardly feel anything. I had a few times that he touched me once on my lower back in the middle with 1 finger and I really got an energy wave through my whole body and during a kiss and I have never really had that with anyone, so what was intense.
Soul love for me feels very intensely that someone is constantly with you, although that is strange, because someone is not the best in the world, the most successful in the world. No, just a very normal man, for whom you can have a deep feeling. Which is so incredibly deep that it sometimes hurts. And that you just know someone totally and he knows you, that you can see right through each other. You can just feel what someone is, what is bothering someone and that is so incredibly beautiful and terrible at the same time
I think it is terrible that the relationship has ended, you are constantly thinking of someone and it is also true that you do not realize that this love relationship is over, because you are still connected to each other. So that makes it difficult, because you have the feeling that you can still call or see that person, because you feel that connection so strong. So it’s over, but actually not. And then it is rotten that someone closes themselves off like this for you and your love that no one can replace, projects from another, whereby that intensity is perhaps much less. Or because he still has to develop himself and ignore you and therefore himself. I wouldn’t mind if I didn’t have a love affair with the person as long as he didn’t shut himself off from me.Because that hurts so much and you feel that you don’t notice it, you feel it. And if I know why that is so, then I am already a lot further, but at the moment I do not know that. People often think that your twinflame cannot be, because that is your true love, and I thought so too, and certainly when you are 20, then you think I have come across the true one and then I have to learn so much. Why, well, it’s the world upside down, but it’s true.
I think that I would look for a soul love again, I can hardly enter into a relationship, because I don’t feel that intense for anyone and therefore I don’t really need it. I also think that you build other relationships and learn from them to ultimately enter into the ultimate relationship with your twinflame. But because I have had it and love it so much, it’s hard to go back. Just like being a director of a hospital and suddenly having to take a job as a cleaner.That is how it feels and I think I could still enter into a love affair, but then it should indeed be someone who is a soulmate of mine or something. Because otherwise I couldn’t do it anymore. And you just feel it. As a 20-year-old not unattractive woman, I am just locked up for relationships, while girls my age have such a relationship or are looking for it. So you’re pretty alone.
My tip is: You must continue to fight if you have met your twinflame or soulmate, although I know little about the latter. Because it means that something special is going on. You have to learn a lot, develop yourself and you have to fight for that. And do not give up even though it hurts so much that you think you could jump off the roof and that you are already dying inside, just continue. You keep doing things, develop yourself and then you will get there. Because meeting someone so important cannot be a coincidence.