S090. In the beginning I also thought that I was going crazy

Riek

All my life I knew he was there. As a child I already dreamed of him but could never see his face. During my marriage I also knew that my husband was not the one, but I was married to him, vaguely something told me that I should have children of him but if I went somewhere to the beach or on vacation I felt that I didn’t want to be there with my husband but with someone else. After a marriage of 19 years we are divorced. it took another 8 years for me to meet my twinflame. I barely spoke to him that night, but I felt that I wanted to stay with him. We first texted a bit and then agreed on a winter evening he came to get me and we went to the beach. We have walked all alone on the beach the most beautiful evening of my life. We had a short relationship through the intervention of 3rd. I thought; I will get over it but it is not. First you think it is just lacking, then you notice that there is more; you feel his sorrow you feel his tension, I also explained to him that I feel it when he is sad but not about soul love, I am just behind that. I know he loves me but is not ready. I have experienced that I felt him go through my body because we were thinking of each other at the same time, I also explained to him that I feel it when he is in pain, but not about soul love, I am just behind that. I know he loves me but is not ready. I have experienced that I felt him go through my body because we were thinking of each other at the same time, I also explained to him that I feel it when he is in pain, but not about soul love, I am just behind that. I know he loves me but is not ready. I have experienced that I felt him go through my body because we were thinking of each other at the same time,I become one with him when I am in bed in the evening , I see his face in the mirror when I look at myself. but I can no longer call him because he is back with his ex-partner also by my own doing. He is unhappy there but is not strong enough to let that go. And I die a little every day, I miss part of myself and I don’t know how to get it back. He thinks it’s all strange and doesn’t understand that I don’t know much about him without seeing or speaking. I would like to speak to someone who can help me and him. I cry when I read all those experiences because I recognize it all, I can’t talk to anyone about it in my environment because it all sounds rather vague. In the beginning I also thought that I was going crazyuntil I went to a medium with it and she explained it to me.