So weird … Last weekend I met someone I knew 25 years ago. We had something innocuous one summer that came from him more than from me. Later contact again via Facebook and now he was in the neighborhood and we met, just nice, my friend. I was looking forward to it just because it was so long ago (16 years) and cozy. After having doubted my relationship with my current friend for years, things are now going so well so well that I have been able to put my years of doubt aside. Right now… We went there, a festival, I saw him standing, walked there, touched his back with my arm, he stood talking to someone else, looked around, saw me shouted in surprise and put his arms around me and I drowned … I drowned, so unexpectedly with people around us including my friend. In 1 second I felt such great confidence, I felt SO coming home as if there had never been anything or anyone else and I thought, god it was YOU … you have always been and I did not know .. !! I thought so … out of nowhere and I felt like I never wanted to let go … The man who stood by saw it, as if he knew it. He saw something happen. And I wanted to sit next to him all evening, it came so unexpectedly, so WOW, so at home and confidently I didn’t want to lose that feeling and would have liked to sit next to him all night, feel contact … It was just fun, we went away let my friend and I, another hug with HIM and that feeling again, I never wanted to let go and it surprised me so much. He is not my type, even though we always had a click, I was never in love with him, my relationship is just right I thought, and then this. I was completely upset. That feeling! Home and trust as if I were drowning … The next day we had just agreed again with friend, and god how I would have liked to talk to him alone, I would like to know if he felt that too, but he actually showed that, too clearly, so that my husband raised his eyebrows. I wanted so badly to sit next to him, even if it was only his foot that touched mine, I never wanted to lose that feeling of contact again! This is so not for me! Secretly touching someone, sitting against someone, this already felt like cheating, but you feel that feeling! The whole weekend I was upset, I flooded cups of tea, I looked for things I already had in my hands, I dropped everything, walked around with nodding knees, and tried to do normally, not as if I was completely upset and confused by my feelings. He said that he and his wife were still together but it was also good if they would go their own way. The whole weekend I felt so at home so familiar and torn apart … Between everything. I thought no this is not possible I cannot leave all of this here, (why on things that are not anticipated?) I had been sleeping badly for a whole year so badly that you can speak of insomnia I really had a problem sleeping. That weekend I felt my body burn with fire, my chakras running at full speed everything was warm pleasant unreal warm. The only moment I ever felt that way was when I woke up yeah back then I felt myself being pulled down in a spiral and as peacefully and full as I felt then, I never felt. Until now, at that meeting. It is unearthly, unreal, where is my sober self? Two days later I could push it off, do it normally, iTS not happened. But it keeps coming back and I would like to talk to him so much, but I don’t dare, cut it off when he appt or Facebook … What should they not think of me. That feeling….! I want to keep it! It feels torn! I search the internet for that feeling and then I end up with a twinflame description … What I found floating earlier, but this is it! Everything is right! What am I supposed to do with this, I would like to risk my whole life, but not again… What should everyone think of me! And so crazy; since that weekend I sleep again !!! Unthinkable! My problem with this was so bad, I sleep and sleep without medication from one to the other! I was also at the homeopath who, before I told this, gave me a book that I really had to read (also about such a meeting of twinflames! And when I came in, he spoke to me after years with my maiden name asn instead of my married name … How strange is that and the cards do not lie … They are never wrong, but I really can’t believe it.How can someone avoid their twinflames, avoid them, that is not possible with this feeling what you have with me? my piece, dream through the day and feel guilty, so guilty … How can people live with this? I no longer know what to do. And when I came in, he spoke to me after years with my maiden name asn instead of my married name … How strange that is and also the cards don’t lie … They are never wrong but I really can’t believe it. How can someone avoid and avoid their twinflames, that is not possible with this feeling that you have with it? I am flabbergasted, my piece is dreaming through the day and I feel guilty, so guilty … How can people live with this? I don’t know what to do anymore. And when I came in, he spoke to me after years with my maiden name asn instead of my married name … How strange that is and also the cards don’t lie … They are never wrong but I really can’t believe it. How can someone avoid and avoid their twinflames, that is not possible with this feeling that you have with it? I am flabbergasted, my piece is dreaming through the day and I feel guilty, so guilty … How can people live with this? I don’t know what to do anymore.
Your story sounds very recognizable. I know my “alleged” twinflame n4 years and man man, what a rollercoaster. The concept of twinflame and that he might be that is only clear to me for 1.5 years. But from the start that I looked into his eyes I knew, this is different. I have been wondering all this time if it really is him. Since our group vacation last summer I know for sure. When we are together it is as if everything around us is just not there, just us. Now that we are back home and trying to resume everyday life, the doubt strikes again…. Exhausting. I try to lead my OWN life as well and as badly as possible, doing the things I want them to do. No more just pleasing anyone but living from my feeling, my heart. Almost everyone is talking about letting go of your twinflame. That sounds more dramatic than it is. The feeling is just there. Point. Let it be there, it is the most beautiful thing there is! The only thing you have to let go is the expectations you have for the other. Good luck on this beautiful journey! Try to enjoy the moments that you have together, just being together. Without expectations … Love