I have known him for over 25 years, he is like a common thread in my life … We have hurt and avoided each other, but we have always found each other again … we never really chose each other. Whether we avoided the choice, whether one of us was in a relationship or the circumstances were not there. In every relationship he had he got into a fight over me, in every relationship I had I got into a fight about him … In our own bubble we were one together but in our daily life we did our own thing … He had a child with another two years after I had a child from another, not much later he married her and again we got something together … when she became pregnant with the second and my relationship was on the rocks in a nasty way after a few years too many … I have him on the bone, tacitly my life worked out … I thought that I had to get my own life back on the road and that he had to finish what he had started, a life with his family … .. In the seven years that followed he had every now and then tried to talk to me but I was like ice cream …. Half a year ago I met him in several places at the same time, while this normally never happened … he lives close to me … When I looked into his eyes I was so surprised by everything that I suddenly felt again … We got together again, both happy as a child but also laden with everything that happened between us. Like chickens without heads, we immediately went completely into it …. I was completely upset, he was too emotionally involved (he says) to fit into his life as it is now. After quite a short time he kept me at a distance, he escapes me and there is radio silence. Because I only now realize how special the band we have, I can’t manage what I often used to do in the past… Distancing …. I know it’s better for him. I myself have been around for 8 years without a relationship … I just don’t feel enough for anyone else … I can’t deal with this, not in this way … I have indicated to him that I would like to talk to him, because of the hype in which we When we were together again a few times, we did not have a real conversation. He would call me for that, but apart from a text message with “I think of you” from him, it is quiet for two months … I am so afraid that we will really lose sight of each other now … It is not that I am pressing wants a love affair with him but I want him so badly back in my life, a little bit. I feel the need to speak out to him about how important he is to me, but he doesn’t give me the chance …. He won’t let me in …. This intense sadness makes me want to get angry so that I no longer feel the pain … but actually that is not what I want … no more … I can call him but only the idea makes me sick at the inside …. I also think that I have to respect his choice but I also really want to clear the “laden” air between us …. That he pretends that nothing has ever happened and ignores me, it hurts so much … I know I have it too affected (for years) and I really do not understand how I could do this anymore … I feel the same distance with him now and I do not understand how he can do this … And yet I do understand and I am even proud of him …. so double, this drives me crazy … This site is one piece of recognition,
Let go and never contact, never consider him again. For your own development and peace of mind. He is not worth your energy.
Dear stranger, I am the questioner. Thank you for answering my question. My dictionary never appears, so I could not agree that with myself. I do not know very well what you mean by “he is not worthy of your energy” I love him dearly, wherever he is and whatever he does and also when he runs away from me like now. He is certainly my energy worth! Liefz, Izis (Unknown)
I certainly agree with answer 1. It is so strange, it seems like I hear my own story from a few years ago! So much understanding, so much self-reflection and yet no way out and no mutual understanding. You don’t reach much in the direction of traffic. If it still doesn’t know your value, then it’s not and letting go does you more good than what you can ever imagine. Never regret those beautiful feelings, enjoy them and it is time that you choose for yourself and for your own happiness and everything that brings a smile to your face and let the pain and sadness go for you to have a smile on you face is more valuable than your soul love has by your side. The choice is now in your hands. The ball is in your hands. It is your life. What is the final decision? Happiness or pain and sorrow and live in fear? !! Take the last step for your own freedom and see how happy and how happy and light you become. We wish you lots of love and happiness!
I would contact you and you will lose a lot of tension and everything will become much clearer when you finish it. Now your whole life is left with questions. Over the years that will gnaw at you, so that you will only worry more because you want to know how things are between you. Unknowingly, it’s going to play a role without you realizing it. It can cause stress and other health problems including a burnout. Let it go and talk about it with your soul love and you start with a clean slate.
Let go. You now know all the reasons that made you cry, so you also know the door to eternal happiness. A day without laughter is a day without life. Choose yourself. Seize the day and point happily. You are already love and love is not love if it cannot shine. You are beautiful. You are worthy. You can be there! Get well soon.
(I am the questioner) What a sweet response! Thank you! I have decided to let my feelings speak and for now the silence may be our best friend. Having contact would not make us happy now. It would only frustrate. I have passed my ego phase and know that it is better this way, for now …. It is strange that here some advice is given that corresponds to what I have recently experienced. That the intense sorrow begins to turn into joy deep within. As if I have suddenly grown. I am more aware than ever of the bond I have with him and answers to old questions suddenly come naturally. Our last encounters have triggered a tsunami in me and I better take the time to go through it. I go with the flow and let time bring the answers. The recognition in all the stories here gives peace and has brought me back to my feelings, my inner knowing … it is good that way. I let it go and in love … Love (I)