Q0759. What is this?

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I have absolutely no idea what’s going on. In my school days I was struck by a look from a girl who was looking at me, I didn’t do anything with it, but I had to keep thinking about her When the school period was over she just called me up for a first appointment. We talked for the first time and there was an unusually fierce click between us, we wanted to know everything about each other, we couldn’t stop talking, she happened to have the same heavy scar in the same place as I have. Because I already had a girlfriend, there were tensions and we no longer saw each other. For 25 years I tried to put her out of my mind, but that feeling with her was unique, I never felt that click again. Family life suited me well and was pleasant, but she came back in my dreams, every time, and I didn’t want that, the more I resisted that, the more intensely those dreams became. Then I made the decision, I called her, she took the phone and it seemed as if time had stood still, she still knew everything. We made an appointment, when I saw her again for the first time, I did not know what I was going through, I was struck by a very special very intense very intense feeling, everything suddenly looked very soft and quiet and she stood there, in the centerpiece as if it were a dream. I gathered myself together and we started talking, she said that there was only 1 man in this life with whom she wanted to grow old and that was with me, she found that 25 years ago. We got into a relationship and my quiet life turned into hell. We went through high mountains and deep valleys, the feeling towards each other always remained very intense and together we grew very close to each other Yet we have put an end to it due to all the tensions in my life. Half a year later she became very ill and admitted to a hospital in a coma, when she awoke from her coma she only asked about me. I visited her and she recovered visibly, we couldn’t live without each other anymore. But again tensions rose so high by everyone who was involved in my life that I took a time out. I am now divorced, I have a lot of feelings of guilt towards everyone. With my mind I want my quiet life back, but my feeling towards her has remained unchanged all these years, I think of her every moment. I thought it would disappear in the long run, but what is this? Half a year later she became very ill and admitted to a hospital in a coma, when she awoke from her coma she only asked about me. I visited her and she recovered visibly, we couldn’t live without each other anymore. But again tensions rose so high by everyone who was involved in my life that I took a time out. I am now divorced, I have a lot of feelings of guilt towards everyone. With my mind I want my quiet life back, but my feeling towards her has remained unchanged all these years, I think of her every moment. I thought it would disappear in the long run, but what is this? Half a year later she became very ill and admitted to a hospital in a coma, when she awoke from her coma she only asked about me. I visited her and she recovered visibly, we couldn’t live without each other anymore. But again tensions rose so high by everyone who was involved in my life that I took a time out. I am now divorced, I have a lot of feelings of guilt towards everyone. With my mind I want my quiet life back, but my feeling towards her has remained unchanged all these years, I think of her every moment. I thought it would disappear in the long run, but what is this? But again tensions rose so high by everyone who was involved in my life that I took a time out. I am now divorced, I have a lot of feelings of guilt towards everyone. With my mind I want my quiet life back, but my feeling towards her has remained unchanged all these years, I think of her every moment. I thought it would disappear in the long run, but what is this? But again tensions rose so high by everyone who was involved in my life that I took a time out. I am now divorced, I have a lot of feelings of guilt towards everyone. With my mind I want my quiet life back, but my feeling towards her has remained unchanged all these years, I think of her every moment. I thought it would disappear in the long run, but what is this?

Answer 1
My opinion is clearly a soul love. You spend some time together without problems. Because you mirror each other, unresolved fears arise. There is a distance between you (rejecting) and this is the time to work on yourself. If these fears (= also external influences) are not resolved, attraction and rejection will continue to take place. Try to talk to each other as much as possible (without forcing). Listen to your own feelings and not to bystanders. Bystanders see your strong bond and are jealous of what you have. When in doubt, ego will take the opportunity to intervene. Good luck. Gr. (Alicia S.)

Response
Alicia, thanks for your answer. Talking is going very well, with her I am in a very different dimension, feeling world. I myself feel very civil, how can I keep everyone happy. There are many unresolved fears that I believe that if I resolve them, I will cause damage to my immediate environment. That’s why I’m just in that time out, then I can think and postpone everything. I was always sobriety itself, I always let myself be talked about by anyone who thinks they know. But my feeling towards her remains unchanged and cannot be influenced by anyone or anything. What do you mean ego could get in between the two? (Unknown)

Answer 2
Dear questioner, see also my answer at 758 . I think the most important thing is that you can resign yourself and accept that it is as it is…. but THAT is only possible once you have found yourself. Maybe you are still in armor in which you do not belong, maybe you are not completely on your path yet. Only if you follow the right track will you really be able to accept and resign yourself, and that track, the right route, you only know very deeply inside yourself. Very difficult, I know, but you will probably succeed and a whole new world will open up for you. Much strength and love (F.)

Response
Thank you F. for your kind response. Thank you for giving me hope. I feel in a suit of armor where I constantly do what is required of me and breaking with it is so difficult. Every time there is something that appeals to me. If I followed my feelings, I would pack my things and go to her to never leave, but my mind still says that I first have to put things right, otherwise it will become (earthly) chaos. Thanks again for your attention (unknown)

Answer 3
So recognizable! Just following your feelings brings so much damage and would be selfish, so do it wisely … and then you get 2 mature sensible people with a huge desire for each other, how wise are they? and for whom? pfffffff who came up with this? I wish myself and my twin a lot of strength and strength x (Unknown)

Answer 4
It’s terrible, because I still care a lot about everyone around me, I don’t want to let them go because it is a part of my life. But it seems that that data is used to block me. You have the very aptly stated answer 3, that as 2 mature and sensible people you want each other so enormously, why can’t you just be together. I also wish you a lot of strength and strength. (Unknown)

Answer 5
A very sensible answer would be, you just can’t have everything in this life (as if I wanted to) pfff, you just don’t feel love with your mind, it’s just there. This can also not be ignored or hidden away and I wonder more and more often what the purpose of this is … it is really crazy for words I think, what should I learn from this, and I really don’t know . Love. (Unknown)

Answer 6
Indeed you cannot have everything in this life, it also feels that you want to abandon everything just to be together, even if you lose everything you have. Suddenly it is no longer important. But then you are caught up in reality again, it seems that sometimes you get attacks of love that make you sick of desire and that you cannot do anything about. Nothing helps against that feeling in the end. Still nice to be able to vent my heart. Love (Unknown)

Answer 7
It is easier to deal with this if you can stay very close to yourself. Allow yourself to feel that love, accept that you can feel love for several people at the same time. And then the most important thing; have faith that life brings you what you need. Listen to your heart. That does not mean that you just have to burn all the ships behind you and go before her. But that you try to live as well as possible to your heart, and to grow in spirituality. There are more ways to have contact with a soul’s love than purely in the physical / earthly. How about astral contact and in dreams? That is just as much a reality as seeing each other in real life. It has been this way for some time between my twin and me, and I notice that we are getting closer together without hurting others. It goes so gradually, that it is as if others in our environment are being prepared very subtly. (Unknown)