My twinflame no longer wants a contacht because he is very scared and has a trauma from when he was a soldier. I find it very difficult not to search for a contacht anymore. My question is would he also experience the pain and sorrow I have? It is hard to harden and it takes me a lot of effort to do my daily things.
It can also be very good that the pain and what you experience are the feelings of him. I currently have no contact with my soul love because he made that choice. I cry a lot every day and I have pain and panic. I have been to a medium who knows what I am talking about and told me that I am crying because we are twinflames. So maybe you can somehow find out if it is your own pain that you feel and if it is not trying to cope in some other way.