S389. I went so deep that I finally had to love myself

Suzanne

I met my twinflame 3 years ago. We both sat through it. He was addicted to painkillers and I spanned into a not happy marriage. I didn’t know it was from the first meeting but everything was shaking in my body. He received a vision of the future at that time. Only the third meeting did I recognize him. A feeling of coming home. Felt or lightning struck. From that moment I could not live without him and he could not live without me. Although the recognition took a long time with him. I got divorced and we entered into a wonderful relationship. So full of love and passion. It took 2.5 years. After half a year there were arguments. He was furious and always blamed me for it. I felt myself getting smaller in the relationship. It also seemed like there was karma at work. Much overworked pain between us. Initially, he did not want a long-term relationship because of the age difference. But he soon realized that the attraction was too big to get around. After a break in the relationship we try to get back together in a love relationship. But it doesn’t work well. He is completely in love with me again, but I no longer feel that love. Too much has happened. I experienced the attraction and repulsion as hell. I also think that he has been attracting a negative entity in recent times that made him act very weird. I’m up and just asking for rest. But he prefers to move in with me again. I feel sad about it. It feels like our characters are not matching at the moment. But he soon realized that the attraction was too big to get around. After a break in the relationship we try to get back together in a love relationship. But it doesn’t work well. He is completely in love with me again, but I no longer feel that love. Too much has happened. I experienced the attraction and repulsion as hell. I also think that he has been attracting a negative entity in recent times that made him act very weird. I’m up and just asking for rest. But he prefers to move in with me again. I feel sad about it. It feels like our characters are not matching at the moment. But he soon realized that the attraction was too big to get around. After a break in the relationship we try to get back together in a love relationship. But it doesn’t work well. He is completely in love with me again, but I no longer feel that love. Too much has happened. I experienced the attraction and repulsion as hell. I also think that he has been attracting a negative entity in recent times that made him act very weird. I’m up and just asking for rest. But he prefers to move in with me again. I feel sad about it. It feels like our characters are not matching at the moment. He is completely in love with me again, but I no longer feel that love. Too much has happened. I experienced the attraction and repulsion as hell. I also think that he has been attracting a negative entity in recent times that made him act very weird. I’m up and just asking for rest. But he prefers to move in with me again. I feel sad about it. It feels like our characters are not matching at the moment. He is completely in love with me again, but I no longer feel that love. Too much has happened. I experienced the attraction and repulsion as hell. I also think that he has been attracting a negative entity in recent times that made him act very weird. I’m up and just asking for rest. But he prefers to move in with me again. I feel sad about it. It feels like our characters are not matching at the moment.

I went so deep that I finally had to love myself. Including my dark side (ego). I enjoy the small things on earth and can open myself to my fellow man. I am grateful for that.

I found the most special thing about making love, it was a spiritual experience. No feeling on earth can match that. We were even 15 km away.

Nothing can be kept secret from each other. Everything is open. That makes me very vulnerable, but at the same time extremely strong.

I currently see my relationship with my twinflame as a huge learning trajectory. I had a lot to work out.

And I hope we can enter into a love affair when there is peace again in the tent and we are back on a spiritual level. If the relationship with my twinflame fails, I think I could have a relationship with someone who is not a soulmate. I have had a short relationship with a soulmate and I also love him (now as friends). So I know that I can also be happy with someone else.

My tip: Soul love goes straight through everything. Trust that it runs as it should. Don’t fight it.