S211. I am actually not so happy that I met my twinflame


I had seen him (TZ) before, but by chance I discovered that he is my twinflame. I was Googling about spirituality and came across articles about twinflames. I also experienced the things that were described there. When I look back and think of the strange things that happened, I think he realized it much earlier than I did.

At one point the spark broke. I really thought I had known him for a long time, but that was not possible, at least not in earthly life. I also didn’t do much with it. I thought he was a nice man but I am in a relationship so life went on. A while later I saw him again and I didn’t feel anything for him. Until at some point I heard his voice again and then I got itchy. Again I did nothing with it and life went on. Until I heard a certain song on YouTube, I immediately thought of him and I realized that I felt more for him than I realized. Since then, now more than a year ago, I think of him almost every day and miss him. I have a hard time with it, because I have a family and I am not waiting for this. But there is little to be done about it. Fortunately things are getting better now and again.

I have never had a relationship with him and would also be impossible. Furthermore, I have no contact with him and I never see him.

I have had a good relationship with my current partner for years and I was happy with my relationship. Because of this experience, the current relationship has become somewhat less in my opinion. My partner knows nothing about it. At least I didn’t tell him anything. I am busy releasing twinflames and would like to continue with my current relationship and become happy again.

Obstacles are that we are both bound.

I don’t know what twinflame wants. I never talked to him about a love affair. I don’t know what I want either. My feeling and mind are contradictory.
I have no contact with him and I often miss him and would like to have contact with him, but I don’t see that happening so quickly.

I am actually not so happy that I have met twinflames . It turns my whole life upside down. Maybe I will be happy with it later.

What I found most special was the spark that skipped, I thought that was special. I had never experienced this before.

I am currently reading many stories about similar experiences and am trying to get better. I also try to let him go as much as possible and continue with my life. Although that is still possible with ups and downs at the moment.