S036. We lit each other’s lights, as it were

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We have known each other for two and a half years now. I was divorced, he a year after our meeting too. We have met each other in the business area, where all the troubles have already come together. On a personal level and especially feeling very intense. The first half year he has courted me violently but very covered, protected me in the background, been very careful with me. The chemistry was overwhelming. The environment saw that too and regularly asked if there was anything between us. We radiated in close proximity, even if we did not know each other when we were in the same room. One saw it when one of us came in. We lit each other’s light … unknowingly. And also when we talked about each other with others.
After a year and a half I told him about my feelings: they were mutual, although it could not have escaped him. With the physical confrontation when I asked what he wanted and maybe wanted to get to know me better outside the business, he denied everything in one go and ran away … The last year he keeps his distance, but the “courtship”, eye contact etc. continues. Sometimes he also shows himself outside the business, but never comes to me. I have the feeling that it is there for whole days. Sometimes it’s there, while it’s not there. I came across people I didn’t know, but who spontaneously started talking about “us”. Two people consecutively. After the first medium (which it turned out to be) I had said that I wanted nothing to do with it anymore: it was too good to be true what would happen … I couldn’t believe it. But less than three months later it repeated itself: a 2nd medium that started talking about “us” just as spontaneously as I didn’t know her. I hadn’t told her anything about myself either. You don’t do that against strangers, do you? The message from both: “It must happen”. Duality … Meanwhile, there are 3 people (mediums) without me and outside of me “busy”. It will then …
What the hell is that? Is this from this world? Am I becoming paranoid?
The feeling is a feeling I have never experienced. That man is in my head all day, almost in my soul. While I have said again: I dare not believe it, I see, you just look at it. Not so, I can’t control it. “Heaven will break open”. What should I do with it? Is it true that it is a difficult way if we were twinflames? And what can I do to get some rest? And I always have the feeling that we will come together, very strong. But passing time as long as it is not yet is creepy. Afraid that it is a reality that is not there at all.
Twinflames … If it happens to me now, however, I wish no one …
I can write books about it, but I hope my “Help” is clear …
Thanks in advance