A fight with my soul. Pretending that nothing was wrong and that I liked it. Today I said goodbye. Maybe you will never see me go and come again. I said goodbye as a colleague, but oh how I wanted to tell you so much, I was in so much pain. I wanted to ask you questions that are bothering me. I’m worried about you, believe me it’s more than just love. I wanted to stay friends, explain that I care a lot about you, and want to make you a better person. I cried so much at home today. I’m sorry I didn’t say goodbye to you, I couldn’t.